Monday, November 21, 2005

The hallucinatory frenzy of departure

Goodbye Cairo,
The word Goodbye kept resound in my ear, how heavy & touching it was.
being rendered more vulnerable by mortal voices bid, Departure beyond these borders .. Our hearts and souls are always the departing point for all thought, feeling and action.
reaching at the beginning, the embryo, a point that could be called a true present, the beginning of a storm, of a revolution, a point of origin that marks a new departure .... One changes his decor, not his existence

21 comments:

Charisma said...

Mystic Tota,

who said goodbye again? :)

as much as i get confused while reading some of your posts coz my mind starts imagining things, as much as i enjoy it, good bless you :)

Rain said...

Our hearts and souls are always the departing point for all thought, feeling and action.

So true, I agree.

Wonderer said...

Are you really leaving Cairo, or is it just a metaphor?!
I second chari, sometime you have very ambiguous philosophical posts that confuse me but still, I enjoy reading them:)

tota said...

Chari
Goodbye again, was there a goodbye before? :)))

well as my posts alert you to imagine things, see images then, you are on the right track :)
i'm glade that u enjoy it after all :)

Rain
your posts are missed!

Wonderer
no I’m not leaving to anywhere :)
I’m little tota do philosophical stuff! … make u confused!
I really appreciate ur interaction with my posts girls :) after all this tumult and racket uproar I cause :)

tota said...

Goodbye Cairo
This is just a phrase I read it couple of days ago … I don’t know why when I read it I felt that my heart shaken & I was highly affected, coincide with a friend’s departure as well .. I’m not sure if the phrase or the departure which meant to me the most!
Maybe I just wanted to mark both of them, my feeling when I read it, and the timing of my friend’s departure ..

Rain said...

Thank you very much tota...I'll try to be back soon :)...but I won't ever lose contact with the blogsphere...u'll always find me in ur comments ;)

I tried not to comment on the departure issue..cause it really hurts me..I hate farewells!!!

tota said...

Well Rain,
we shouldn’t lose your rain drops around :)

I don’t like farewell as well.

Me said...

As always ya Tota.. you "mystified me" .. but then I read what you meant in the comments :-D

Alina said...

Loved the part about the embryo, Tota! Perfect choice.

Unknown said...

Nothing strip the soul of its untainted ingredients more than parting one’s family
and with your feet separating from your country's soil to land on the first step of the airplane steps you knew that your life will never be the same.

Bart Treuren said...

the plays in life are acted out differently, the actor remains the same through each of the roles... beginnings, ends, tangles and enlightenment...

keep well, sleep well...

tota said...

ME
Sorry about the mystic part think it’s in my blood :D

Kayla
We are always this embryo, never grow to rebirth again


Yea bart, it’s the life play & the actor always needs a break between his roles in this life.

tota said...

Welcome Essam to my blog
some ppl are travelers "strangers" in thierown land, without leaveing thier place.

and Sometimes we need at times to separate from family and companions to new places. to be open and change …
I see u r an Egyptian not living in Egypt

Unknown said...

And some people are doomed for alienation, wondering soulless in foreign lands. Riding a wave after another just killing time until death knock on the door

thank you tota

tota said...

you are welcome Essam

I think they are doomed to make choices, life is too short to live it in pain

Unknown said...

Then again, our choices are limited by our willingness
to start over, to forgive and forget to deface ugliness and
glorify the simplicity of life and enjoy it but for some of us
normalcy is only a phantom reflecting on the next step we try to take.

tota said...

Willingness is simply the courage to be afraid of something but you act anyway … a persistence to follow directions, to take risks to find peace in the end
This is The condition of our survival .. to learn how to live … the meagerest existence

Unknown said...

I shall speak of hope as an old friend yet I merely knew him.
I witness the miracles emerging of his shadow however I believe it is only an illusion....
So around and around in the loop of life we go, chasing hopes and dreams that none of us know. Neither our hearts can rest a single day nor our souls are brave enough to stay.

tota said...

hope is like a feather ... as soon as it comes, little portion of wind can blow it away .. we who create that hope & we who distroy it!
sometimes it’s our mind which function inside and outside retreat!
and we always enjoy this continuous battle between ourselves & our emotion, which became part of our nature … then we complain that we have no peace in life!

Unknown said...

We struggle from conception until our demise. Some resist change and some strive on it, few take risks and many go through their life unnoticed.
We struggle with our loved ones just as much with our nemesis
We fight to become superior then hide when responsibilities arouse
We blame each other and master the game of guilt
Our idols do not match our values and neither comes close to our principles
We beg for forgiveness and fail to forgive our selves
It is a part of being human, imperfect, deficient and flawed.

tota said...

Our value judgment. We cant see things as they are, we see it according to our way of thinking .. likes & dislikes
To differ? … different opinions can have their own different validity .. We are different coz we have different personal preferences, different set of values, perception, view of possible futures, personal experience and knowledge.. But we have to reconcile the differences then agree to differ on what can’t be reconciled!

i see that all what you talk about is the bad dark side of everything .. we aren't all the way optimistic, but we have to remember to see the half full view of the glass