Tuesday, February 14, 2006

The Valentine’s memory


She went there again …
it’s the same day, same time, same place. but with different circumstances, she was dressing in black and he wasn’t there!recalling all this without him, a reversible process reminded her of the movie ' Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind ' everything is the same, but the second person is omitted, not there ... erased, disappeared from the scene!
then she thought …maybe a kind of miracle would happen and he will show up in the perfect moment... she started to believe that between a second or another she may see him coming towards her, taking her hands & telling her that he was wrong when he decided to leave her. he discovered that his life never values without her coz she completes him!
and that he learned to
”Never let a problem to be solved become more important than a person to be loved.” ~ Barbara Johnson ~”True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.” ~ Jason Jordan ~ he couldn’t withstand that feeling of being hopeless, that the love of his life may go with the wrong man, so he wants her back, stammering that he still loves her!
but then, even nature itself played against her & refused to help her contemplate the moment any further … It rained heavily in a way as if it insists to wash away every single memory of him.… she remembers when she first met him in the winter of 2005. lt was a marvelously sunny day, very different weather than today, as if the sun only shined for them to lighten their day and overwhelm them by its warmth. “To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. ” ~ David Viscott ~
The bad weather obliged her to hurry back home, in her way back she discovered that she lost her most precious ring!, is it a sign of something, that what we lost we can never get it back?!
“If you love something, set it free. If it comes back, it was, and always will be yours. If it never returns, it was never yours to begin with.” ~ Unknown ~

She doesn’t hate him even though he caused her so much pain. She believes that this is exactly what happened with her.
”Love the heart that hurts you, but never hurt the heart that loves you.” ~ Vipin Sharma ~
She wanted to end it in the same place where it all started, to end this painful story. Wishing for a divine accident, a different scene, a different end!

Cast ur eyes on the ocean… Cast ur soul to the sea…When the dark night seems endless… please remember me ... (Loreena McKennitt, Dante's Prayer)

Does he worth all that?, Nothing makes any sense to me!
“I hold it true, whate’er befall;
I feel it, when I sorrow most;
‘Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.”
~ Alfred, Lord Tennyson ~

4 comments:

L said...

this was poignant and beautiful. i love it.

tota said...

Thanx writer and The Ultimate Groupie

for stopping by my blog & for your nice words

Alina said...

This post is simply incredible! A common feeling of longing for the past that we all experience at least once decribed in such a uncommon way! Loved it!

tota said...

it's nice to see you around again Kayla, and i'm glade that u liked it